Post by LOVELY MEGAN!? on Jan 9, 2013 16:53:53 GMT -5
Sam,
When your little the world seems to be much wider than it really is. You sit there watching everything going on around you, and you’re content, because you know your family is going to watch out for you… they’re going to care for you, because that’s what family does.
That’s not how my family was.
I was raised from the minute I was created to be a weapon, for a War that you were supposed to be used for. We were all soldiers, faithful and complaint. The world was a constricted space, a jail that I had to spend my time in.
And then you and your brother happened to step up and say no against everything that was meant to be. You looked destiny in the face and you spit at it’s feet. And my world opened back up. Castiel fell first, but I was thinking about your words just as long as he was. You showed me that I didn’t have to be what Michael wanted me to be, just like you didn’t have to be what Lucifer wanted you to be… But you also taught me that I also had to accept what I was, use it for the good of everyone.
You’re so strong, Sam Winchester. And pure. You never needed me to look after you.
But just know… I always listened to your prayers, I always had you in mind, in my heart and Grace. There’s a vial enclosed in this envelope, with the last remaining shard of who I am and was. It’s for you. Whenever you feel lost, whenever you feel like you’re alone in the world without a voice to guide you, I want you to clutch at my Grace and remember that I am still close to you. I’m still there as much as I can be.
You will always be my friend Sam. My first friend, my confidant and the most precious thing to me.
Yes, you’re probably figuring out what this letter means. I’m going to die, or already am dead. I left my angel blade under your pillow. Use it if the need should ever arise.
I was never as strong as you Sam. There are family members that want me dead and they will use you to get to me. So letting them kill me is the only way to keep you moderately safe. I suppose that in a way this could be considered suicide… such a human concept.
You made an angel human in the most purest of senses, Sam. You should get a medal for that. Know that I’m smiling right now though and while Death’s touch will bring pain, I won’t be sad. You’re safe and that’s all that matters to me.
I love you, Sam.
Camael
When your little the world seems to be much wider than it really is. You sit there watching everything going on around you, and you’re content, because you know your family is going to watch out for you… they’re going to care for you, because that’s what family does.
That’s not how my family was.
I was raised from the minute I was created to be a weapon, for a War that you were supposed to be used for. We were all soldiers, faithful and complaint. The world was a constricted space, a jail that I had to spend my time in.
And then you and your brother happened to step up and say no against everything that was meant to be. You looked destiny in the face and you spit at it’s feet. And my world opened back up. Castiel fell first, but I was thinking about your words just as long as he was. You showed me that I didn’t have to be what Michael wanted me to be, just like you didn’t have to be what Lucifer wanted you to be… But you also taught me that I also had to accept what I was, use it for the good of everyone.
You’re so strong, Sam Winchester. And pure. You never needed me to look after you.
But just know… I always listened to your prayers, I always had you in mind, in my heart and Grace. There’s a vial enclosed in this envelope, with the last remaining shard of who I am and was. It’s for you. Whenever you feel lost, whenever you feel like you’re alone in the world without a voice to guide you, I want you to clutch at my Grace and remember that I am still close to you. I’m still there as much as I can be.
You will always be my friend Sam. My first friend, my confidant and the most precious thing to me.
Yes, you’re probably figuring out what this letter means. I’m going to die, or already am dead. I left my angel blade under your pillow. Use it if the need should ever arise.
I was never as strong as you Sam. There are family members that want me dead and they will use you to get to me. So letting them kill me is the only way to keep you moderately safe. I suppose that in a way this could be considered suicide… such a human concept.
You made an angel human in the most purest of senses, Sam. You should get a medal for that. Know that I’m smiling right now though and while Death’s touch will bring pain, I won’t be sad. You’re safe and that’s all that matters to me.
I love you, Sam.
Camael